For a long time I always watched movies purely as a source of entertainment. The way media and entertainment has painted as being dark and blamed a part of the idiot box and for not anything positive out of it. I am sure in our subconscious mind somewhere these movies which gross millions of bucks on the box office are potent enough and are premises based on which our life take the inevitable twist.

Movies make you think, they make you feel, they make you listen to others feelings, they make your conscience come to reality. Such is the power of movies. Media is always looked at as a destructive force only because of the way we look at it, because of what we take of it. The strongest words that I have heard from one of my friends were “Take the good and leave the rest”. This one thing holds true even for the movies we watch.

Media (Movies) of used as a catalyst has the power of changing lives. It has done that to me. I know set of people who try continuously in harnessing the power of Media for the good of society (MAM Movies). These guys have been the inspiration and the beacon of hope for a lot of people has had no positive thing to look forward in life. I am particularly impressed and touched by the way Americans though how stupid they have been with the wars they have caused to make some of the most inspirational movies.

It all depends on how you take something to be and how much importance you give it in your life. I think movies can be just the source of entertainment or a life changing experience.

It is changing mine and making me realize how much I can give back to the world. I just hope everyone looks at the same way!!!

My aspiration lately is to develop a self sustaining community in the hills of India. I can say this feeling did not strike me like a jolt of lighting neither it is an impulsive decision. But it certainly was one of the impulses that had been hibernating in my subconscious mind for long time. I was certainly moved by the endless mountains and landscape of Ladhak and my dream of riding through the serene yet untamed mountains standing at 14000 feet and above have become much stronger. As soon as I read a blog on road trip to Ladhak I knew this was one of the place is wanted to be.


In fact I could not believe the bike trip that I did with Brijesh and amit completing 2300 kms would be life changing in many ways. It was the most amazing experience of my life. It also made me realize that I could do things alone and also had the determination to step out and try the unimaginable.

That’s when I knew my next stop is the north of India where the monks, the stupas, the valleys and the villages were calling me. But unfortunately it remains an incomplete journey. But we in a very clichéd way keep mentioning that every thing happens for the good might turn out to be the biggest truth of my life. I never thought I could step out of the comfort zone I was dwelling in and even think about starting a life for myself. I can hear the song “There aint no mountain high enough, valley low enough river wide enough to keep me from getting to you” constantly buzzing around my ears. The song just might help me put some action into my thoughts.






Can you beat anything more beautiful than this?
Now my plan seems clear. Thanks to Sachi’s encounter with SIDH put thing into perspective at the right time. It fitted in like the Japanese quality initiative of Just in Time. I just thought about a collaborative model of SIDH and Himalayan Village. These I can clearly say are the two inspirations that I will take and form my own community of self sustenance.

My plan is to get 4-5 people who like minded thoughts and generate corpus that would enable us to build the place that I dream of. The concrete plan is to have 5-6 two bed room cottages and also dormitory which can accommodate 10-12 people. This section of the place caters to tourist and not just tourist but people who admire and respect the creation of nature. Also have a store which could sell handicrafts and other goods manufactured by the localities providing them source of income. Also have a school and activity center to educate or at least make the locals literate to get a better understanding of life. Also have a place for organic farming which I feel is the need to be addressed with growing concerns about weather and depletion of clean environment. One of the important things would be is to use renewable source of energy like solar panels and sewage water treatment. I guess this what I dream of at very superficial level.

“Ab jo hoga manzoore khuda hoga”.

There is constant conflict within my mind, I assume for everyone in this world there is. But introspection is something that could to certain extent clear some of these conflicts. I say some of them because not all of them can be answered till we have personally tried it for ourselves (The road less travelled).

I think I was always finding for something which could liberate from the regular routine, the rats race which I has become a part of and yet hated it to the core of my heart. I always wished to be someone like one of mark twains books characters like tom sawyer or Huckleberry Finn. I remember reading the book when I was kid and was fascinated by how someone could spend their time doing what they liked so much without a caring an ounce about the world around them. More than Tom I liked Huckleberry Finn for his free spirited nature. But I guess ended up being like Tom Sawyer who got an education and a regular job of a software engineer (it’s just an analogy). I am not criticizing all those who have the same life just that I don’t find it satisfying enough, don’t feel I do something that gives me goose bump or that I have made a difference in the world today.

I always wanted a life changing experience, work with people, do something that was basic. But I eventually got caught in the turmoil of being born in a middle class family and responsibility of satisfying my parents, living up to their expectation, having the 9-6 job and then come home and spend time with family. In fact the whole inspiration behind writing this piece is looking at people around me. I just observed people around me who are so engrossed in the work that they do. Do they or do they not feel the need to do something more than this, stretch their human capabilities to benefit others or at least explore the world around them. I was surprised to here that in span of one and half years of them living in Mumbai or also of having reached age where you are capable of taking you own decisions they had never been on a trek. I felt doesn’t their inner sense coax them to do something apart from their regular routine, go into the wild and explore the unknown. I have not found myself yet but have they even tried doing that. I am not trying to be judgmental but you can figure out things to a certain extent being around with them.

I have realized my dream is to be close to the mountains constantly exploring newer paradises working with local inhabitants and helping them to build a self sustainable society. Probably it’s an excuse to run away from something or just one of my temporary phases in life. I just got the new found energy and encouragement to tell my parents that I wanted to lead a life which did not demand me to crave for money or to constantly follow the thousands and millions who are already there and feel desperate about not being able to do anything or like some of them who at the fag end of their life would realize that they have not done anything significant for the very mankind they have been part of. My decision has been taken only execution is awaited.

But is this what I am doing something extra ordinary or is it something I choose not to be part of the mainstream section of society. Who am I to decide whether people who I have seen being part of this genre to be the ordinary or proclaim people who thoughts similar to mine to be the extra ordinary or people who have already done great things to be extra ordinary.

I think I have found what I want and hope to be there in sometime without having assumptions about people who don’t tread the road I do.

SEE SAW..


I call this the see saw. I have realized it long time back but felt like writing it now that i or generally most human beings behave like a see saw. Yeah the ones which kids play on!!!

My heart is constantly coaxing me to do all that i should not when i all fit. But as soon as i fall ill the heart tells me no its bad dont do it. But then cycle continues. I would love to gain control over this. I think all of us would. It's funnny the way our heart our mind or so interconnected tho lot of people wont agree philosohically.

One of the biggest inspirers in my life or rather a person whom i admire is Mr.John Slliphant. Sorry johny boy the blog is not about you but i guess it would not hurt to mention a few things about him. I could say lot of nice things about himself. His concept of giving is not limited to humans and materialistic things. People could give up their car clothes money just like that. He can give up a lot more than just all these things. First time i had seen a person cry or get so emotional about a dog got hurt on the road and did not feel nice about it for 2 days was john. A man who has so much comapassion that he lets the mosquito sit on his hand and let thwm suck the blood out of his body.

I want to gain control of the fact that i behave ina constant manner without any change irrespective of my incapacitations. My fear should not stop me from what i intend on doing. My craving should stop. I dont know if that is called as being satwik attaining nirvana or whatever they might call it. But i need that one time in life when i dont think about anything not even my breath.


Give so much that you dont have anything more to worry about!.


Live life kingsize!:)

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We are back episode 2 of my soap...

But enough what happened at work... i am not in the mood to sulk about it. Can say I am facing writers block :)... let us look at regular week in Bangalore.

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let us start with a monday. As i have problem getting up early in the morning i am late to office by approximately 3 hrs. i usually try getting up 6:30 in the morning to take the regular shuttle.. but in vain. Somehow biologically my eyes are not able to se anything in the morning. So i usually get up at around 8:30 and switch on the TV to listen to some music.

Keep rolling on the bed for like half hour or so. Then finally decide to take a bath which happens occasionally for those who know me.. Actually this statement made by my friends, but i take a bath religiously. Get all the bare essentials ready then just get into the bathroom, whose dimensions are somewhat like 3 feet by 8 feet. Yeah pretty small. I just let the water flow when i realize that there is no hot water available. For most of you i don’t think you are aware of the concept of solar water heaters which exists mostly in Bangalore. So convince myself by thinking that it is Luke warm water like soldiers prepare themselves before they go for a war.

So after bathing episode gets over i dress up in whatever i find and brush my teeth.. yes brush my teeth after i take a bath.

i wait till its 9:45 which is like the perfect time for me to leave to the bus stop which is just 2 kms away from place. i get down the stairs to get a rick unlike rest of my colleagues who walk it down to the bus stop. I have to argue with rickshaw guy about the fare as he would for 1.5 times the meter a concept alien to mumbaikars. Once the fiasco is over i get down at this hotel where i usually have my breakfast which is usually one idly and one wada sambhar mix(sambhar mix is when he puts the sambhar in the plate itself) i contemplate then whether to order a coffee /coldrink or fruit juice depending on the time. Manage to pay the bill and rush to the bus stop which is at the opposite side, where i just realize i am 10 minutes early for the bus. I start removing my mp3 player, the most faithful companion i have had for 2.5 years. I have to untangle the knots on the wire which takes me precisely 5 minutes. Hurray!!! after which i start listening to music which i have stored and not reloaded for the past three weeks. Suddenly i there comes my bus with the big SAP LABS banner at the top of the windshield of the bus. i get into the bus and find a seat which is comfortable. After a few minutes i go into deep meditation which means i am sleeping.

Next stop is SAP LABS where i get up. This place is called campus and for the first time one would feel that you had landed up in some resort and believe me it really looks like one. The landscape is just too good. I believe the campus has been rated the best in India. But i can’t believe when people complain about this place. OK now the sad part i don’t work at this location. i have to travel a few kms to a place called salarpuria, no it’s not an area it is just the building name which is similar to any other IT company building. So i get on with the regular grind ..WORK. The day passes by and I get ready to leave at 8:15 or 9:15 depending on my mood.


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Free Falling

the title reminds you of the song by tom petty for sure.. actualy this would not be my first blog, as i have many unsuccessfull attempts of writing but falied to save them.(huh!! technology the culprit)
So i guess the big question is ... why did i start over again?

i think bloggin is similar to maintaining a digital diary but for one thing being different you let others read it :) . And moreover me writing is when soemthing eventfull thing happens in my LIFE?(pun intended for all those who have seen rahul kamath's t-shirt).

where do i start? hmm.. So i have just cleared my MCA and waiting at home for my offer from the company i did my internship i did it in. it's been 2 months and i have been impatient but still enjoying life the way i always do. But suddenly i realize that i dont have a job yet. So call up my senior and ask her to refer me and get the job. I think i just was looking at some job and was pretty sure i would get a developement job since i was in developement in the internship comapny. But to my disappointment i did not!! But i am not bothered and get down to bangalore where i am deputed at the client side.

now comes the main story.Teh first day at client office i could not stop grinning looking at the office coz believe me it was awsome. A lift which has reflecting metal all around, which let you see yourself and everyone in the lift. i was smiling all my way thru the lift.. dont ask why:)
and to add to the excitement guess soemthing that cheers me up more, there is an aerated drinks vending machine in the pantry. yo!!Ho!!.

initial phase was just getting KT(PUN intended) ok serious Knowledge transfer.. :) from my team mates who i was supposed to replace. Work starts and i am billable after 2 weeks.. i just keep to myself and doing my job and used to having lunch alone. i wanted to interact with poeple but my team mates were like stuck their seats.. not the poeple who liked interaction. i was amazed as to how they could sit on thier seat all day long and not talk to anyone. but does not surprise me now.

ok i am getting a bit tired now will blog the rest later .. my blogs are going to be like soaps.. one episode after the other..ciao for now